I knew it would be. I had several people warn me. I even mapped out my days for optimal productivity. It’s what I do and I’m good at it. But man it’s hard. And if it weren’t hard enough to manage one business, I’m managing TWO.
Don’t worry – this will not be a post where I bemoan about the choices I’ve made. Despite the difficulty, I really love being self-employed. I’m working for my own dream and not someone else’s. That’s an incredible feeling. I also have control over major aspects of both of my businesses, and I love that too. I’m 100% passionate about my ventures – sewing & helping others. But sometimes I miss the niceties of working for others. Like having a secretary.
Everyone reads about young entrepreneurs and how much fun they’re having being their own boss. And that’s true – I love the freedom and flexibility. Rarely do you hear, however, just how hard it is doing everything yourself. From copies to scheduling to documentation to accounting to photos to blog posts to Instagram 3x per day to setting up a video set, it’s. all. on. me.
And it’s all beautiful and awesome and stressful and hard. Really, really stinkin’ hard.
It’s hard meeting with clients in rural counties and hoping I have the ability to find them a job so they can enter the workforce despite their disability. When I did this job as a State employee, I was paid regardless. Now my pay is dependent on others, and that’s scary.
It’s hard to create engaging sewing courses that hopefully people with take, and then trust that you can adequately teach the material in a way that a novice can understand. And don’t even get me started on marketing and self-promotion – I annoy myself some days.
Don’t let social media fool you. Those of us crazy enough to pursue our dreams are working our assess off. And some of us are lucky enough to have a ton of support. Like a mom who cleans my house every few weeks. Or a boyfriend who reminds me of my awesomeness when I’m freaking out. And a stepdad who provides financial support when I need it.
I’ll keep on keepin’ on. I’m learning that I can’t work 10 hours without a break. Or pack my schedule so tightly that I have no time to sew for myself. I need consistent sleep, bubble baths, dark chocolate and date nights. I’m slowly but surely figuring out how to make everything work. And I truly love it.
Worth it? Absolutely.